Just a Loner

I thought maybe it was him, but I realized its me, its Alexus K. Bradley, Not anyone else, only me, it's my heart and I have to decide what to do with it, but could it be MY fault that I feel Lonely? I mean its not MY fault, everyone tells me lies, its not MY fault that he wants to be best friends, thats working out somewhat perfect, its just we keep bringing up our relationship. Its not only him, it seems like my friends are pushing away from me, Or maybe I'm pushing them away, whatever it is, its not working out.......