actually happy

wow, im actually happy, i havent felt this way in a lonngggggg time!! saw my crush yesterday, and he actually spoke to me!!, for a long time, we text alot, but i didnt think he'd reconize me, Im still happy from that even like nothing can let me down!! nobody can ruin my mood :)

Uhh idk

I dont know what to feel, I guess Im just lost, I have no idea what to write, but my heart hurts and my loneliness came back

Heartbroken & Alone

At times, I wish I never even met him, but at other times, I'm happy I did, today I saw him, hugging another girl, which made me hurt so bad, and Its probably because, that was once mine, and it is mind no more..But that was never my fault, its all his fault, its his he messed up our relationship, and he barely even talks to me anymore, an we're suppose to be best friends. hmm yeah that works he was my everything, but now I gotta move on, no matter how hard it is, -Im gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well-Taylor swift_White Horse.. it true, Im happy that Taylor wrote such inspiring songs.....but still how do I deal with this hurt, when I wish I still had him?

in school

Well Im just in school , surrounded by numerous idiots, and disturbing people, Im suppose to be doing "math games" but what's the point, its not like I can fail, which But Im just thinking, getting up early to school just to get to play games? Wow,  thats cool, for now anyway, but I just better not fail, I woke up early, got ready faster just so I could increase my chance of getting into a better high school... Im determined to get where I wanna me, and I realized, I can't let anyone, or anything get me down, where I fail in life... Thats the very last thing I want, and it'll never happen as long as I believe I can succeed... right?

Just a Loner

I thought maybe it was him, but I realized its me, its Alexus K. Bradley, Not anyone else, only me, it's my heart and I have to decide what to do with it, but could it be MY fault that I feel Lonely? I mean its not MY fault, everyone tells me lies, its not MY fault that he wants to be best friends, thats working out somewhat perfect, its just we keep bringing up our relationship. Its not only him, it seems like my friends are pushing away from me, Or maybe I'm pushing them away, whatever it is, its not working out.......