Monday, January 23, 2012

Dark Secluded corner

I sit alone in the corner,
secluded by darkness,
I can see nothing except darkness,
I guess I  can't see it, it's dark
I hear nothing, but silence
But i guess I can't hear silence, it's silent
I sit alone on the floor,
In the dark secluded corner,
my head buried in my knees,
with each tear, I feel more pain
like each tear,is fire,  burning in my soul,
Torture, torturing me, hey just keep falling,
Faster and Faster, as I think about what cause the Pain, 
I hear laughter downstairs,
 No laughter in here,
Nobody knows the Pain, I feel
They just see the fake smile, I put on my face ,
it's not there right now, 
never let anyone know the real me,
nobody wants to know, probably,
They'll think I'm crazy,
if they see the scars on my arm, 
Thats why I hide them
long sleeves, lots of bracelets,
I Scream, begging to get rid of the pain,
hoping the pain, will runaway and never comeback,
the pain is a nuisance,
I just listen to nothing,
no crickets outside, no clouds ticking,
the laughter downstairs is now silent.
I take a deep breath, 'wipe my face, no one can see my tears
Look at myself in the mirror, 
I look like I'm all good,
I put on my fake smile,
 and walk downstairs,
nobody, will ever know,
 the secluded dark corner, I really am.



Wednesday, January 4, 2012

DEPRESSED.

I was totally fine. For like a couple weeks, I was happy, I mean I stopped cutting myself, and everything, but the way I feel now makes me wanna start again. But I'll just take a breath and listen to music. Hopefully I'll get to be happy, sooner or later.